Hello two days ago, it was her b’day. I tried to contact her, I did my best to find her. Guess what I found following things :
1) She changed her email address. Her Email address is bounced.
2) She is doing job.
3) She has new friends who are boys.
4) Her friends think I am could not appreciate her and she is far better. They think I do not love her. God, I will accept any lie but not loving her, is not true. I love her I love her I love her very much.
5) I could not find her new email address but I found a place where she participate in forum. I tried to be member of that forum to post but it is by invitation only. I just see her but could not get to her.
I think this was my last try. I already have received paper from her. I wanted to get to her before I sign the paper. I really do not want to sign the papers. I want to stay married to her. I celebrated her b’day here without her. It was big party and I invited my friends. They did not know why I did it, but it was all for her.
I love her very much. I really do not want to sign the papers. I love her very very much. I have no place to tell this, that is why I am typing here. I just can not forget her. She is happy, that is good but I want her to be happy with me.
When she left she did not tell anyone why she left. Now she think I did not love her enough on that forum :((
If any of you can prey for me. Please do so. I just can not go on like this.